Prayer

Hey all, Finally feeling more human after being on strong antibiotics for about a month- had a week in the middle of the 2 course without the strong ones and still a week left. However I’m finally through it and feeling more human again. It’s been so hard to do much over the past few weeks and at times I felt like I’d completely shut down. This coupled with a few other things has meant at a time when I should have been leaning in to God more I haven’t been. However, I have been super grateful to have some awesome people around me fighting for me in prayer, and generally having my back.

This prompted me to be quite challenged this week, especially on Saturday when a group of people doing academy in Hereford visited. Boy did things really turn around- I’m not gonna go into too much detail but these guys are incredible and I was so encouraged by them, and they have spired me on so much. So thanks guys- if you don’t know the difference you have made- ask Ruth or message me privately and please continue to pray for me. This years academy students really are awesome, if you get the chance hang out with them… or read about how they are putting faith into action here- https://hannahgraycrosby.wordpress.com/2018/01/25/scott-the-artist/

So one of the many challenges I’ve faced this past week and really past 4 weeks, has been accepting prayer and praying for myself. Some in my small group know praying for myself is something I find really really difficult (still do) and having people pray with me or for me is also something I find tough but am learning to accept and embrace it. I was asked a before Christmas why this was and I have to say that until this weekend I had no idea. For those non-christians reading this stick with it, please continue reading and you might gain something from this. Prayer works- it may seem silly but I’ve seen the results of prayer, seen it in my own life and seen it in countless others lives too. Now God isn’t some genie who grants wishes, and goodness knows we have all thrown up that God if your real- let me win the lottery prayer. (He’s probably sick of hearing this one thousands of years ago- so imagine where he’s at now.) However I’ve seen mountains shift in peoples lives thanks to the power that prayer has. I’ve experienced and seen healing thanks to prayer. Yet in my life I still find it tough to accept, and really hard.

At freedom church one of our five DNA (what we stand by as a movement) is Amazing Faith. https://youtu.be/soj_FQbT844 I would say this is probably the DNA that I know I still have a way to go with. Now I’m not saying I don’t step out in faith, or can believe for mountains to be moved. However I find it much easier to believe for this to happen in someone else life than my own. This week I realised part of the reason for this has roots from when I got sick (all those moons ago). One thing I distinctly remember is having people come up to me and tell me that they were praying for me. At the time I would get so offended by this, no one asked me if I wanted them to pray for me. In all honesty I didn’t want them to- I was so lost and confused at why God has caused all of this suffering within our world. Why cancer and cancer-ish existed I didn’t want prayer because I didn’t believe it had any worth, value or purpose. I’d have much preferred they didn’t tell me, or didn’t bother at all. I remember the new vicar at church saying he was praying for me and I thought he was a complete loon he hardly knew me, and I certainly didn’t want prayer from someone unknown… However, now looking back I’m not sure where i’d have been without it. I know that now I pray for thousands of randoms without asking.

This past week God has had me in a place where I’ve physically, mentally and emotionally felt every prayer thats been said for me. Even at times when I’ve woken not knowing who it was that was praying but whole heartedly knowing someone was. I’ve seen the difference of how my church approach prayer, whilst you still have people comment they are praying for you. We are a church that asks can i pray with you/for you? there is something more to this… at the moment i can’t quite get to it. But is powerful, special and immensely life changing.

I heard something once that every human at some point in their lives has prayed. Even if it was for that lottery win, or elusive snow day off school. Thousands upon thousands of people all around the world are praying right now, there are 24/7 prayer organisations (Freedom Church being one of them). Prayer works, else this would have died out thousands of years ago. My prayer life still has some way to go and although I’m great at getting behind and fighting in prayer for others- I defiantly need to work on praying for myself.

This is just one of the many things I’ve learnt this week. I’m gonna try and be better at telling you more about my learnings, and get better at writing blogs from that long list of topics I have, however I’m not expecting this to happen over night (or anytime soon- it is winter after all).

Lots of love till next time- I’ll be praying for you.

Wen x

ps- when i sat down to write this wasn’t what I was expecting to come out.

Pps. Just want to say a huge thank you to the academy guys- especially Ruth Djirackor aka Kenyan Ruth for really helping me by encouraging my spiritual gifting and giving me the boot in the butt I needed.

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